I am a writer. I've written kind of a lot. A lot of fiction, anyway. But I never finish my work (nor do I eat the last 10% of my food. Eh? Full circle. Stupid college.). Anyway, ive been reading the works of an author by the name of Raymund Carver. He's a really great short story author. He doesn't say a lot; he says just enough. And I think maybe he's got it right. Maybe I was never meant to be a writer of novels or epics, maybe I am more of the short story persuasion, yeah? Just create them, give them life and leave them.
Today, I felt my first pang of longing for fall. It came because this guy said the word "enthusiastic" just so and it brought all kinds of desires to dress warm and wear beanies. Does that ever happen to anyone else? When someone says a single word, it makes you miss something? Weird. I think fall is my favorite season. I love the colors and the smells; I just really love it.
I live in my sisters house. She is the mom of two very cute young men (and I mean way young; like, they're babies). For my sister, Samantha's birthday, I bought her a fish tank. However, Samantha didn't take the fish tank from me. So, I kept the fish tank. I really grew to love my fish. I didn't name them because I didn't want to get attached. I cleaned their tank every week and fed them every day. A month ago, I had to move from my room upstairs in my sisters house to a room in her basement. I was stoked because it gave me more isolation.
The basement is a lot more cold, though. My fish didn't take the temperature change well. They became lethargic and I could tell that something was wrong. Then one day, I went to feed my fish and they were all dead. I think it was the cold.
Seriously, I miss my fish a lot.
I definitely prefer pencils over pens. Well, kind of. I guess not definitely. I mean, on the one hand, pens are permanent. I like my writing to be permanent. But, I think pencils are more romantic, you know? They've got a sort of allure. Whatever you create can be erased. It's not a permanent thing. Even time wears down pencil. Pencils give a sort of life cycle to writing. "You had better enjoy this soon because if you don't, it might fade to the point that you can't read it anymore." Pencils are much more dramatic. Writing in pencil is more human. I definitely prefer pencils over pens.
This post has been longer than usual.
I really love you for reading. I mean that.
Drive fast and take risks.